Weird Junk mail... lots of emotions.

August is usually a very, very hard month for me.  It seems to be pretty emotional one since Kevin's mother passed in this month. I can still really recall all the events of her last 2 months or so of her life.  


I have been thinking of her a whole lot the last few weeks.  More than normal and not sure why.


I sent Nick out to get the mail and he comes back to give it to me. I can see we mostly have junk mail. I flip through it there is junk mail addressed to my my mother-in-law.  It freaked me out.  She has been gone nearly 5 years now.  Now occasionally I get mail for my BIL or my FIL here, but I was pretty shocked to get that mail with her name on it.  It has brought up a ton of emotions!!


Every year when Victoria's birthday comes around, it brings me back to just a week later is the anniversary of my MIL death.  Five years ago, Victoria had donated her hair, for the first time, to Locks of Love right before her birthday that year and she came home and  told my MIL who was very glad she had done that.  We had also found out what play we were doing that year, and it was Alice in Wonderland, my MIL favorite play/movie. We were able to let her know that as well.


I am full of emotions right now.  Why did I get the junk mail? Or even look at it since most of the time I just throw it out. 
Funny, it was junk mail for Disney and I was talking about going back to Florida soon.  


So, I really do not know what it means. I could mean I need to pray more or talk about her more or think of her more.  I am glad to have that reminder today. I think I needed it.  God Bless!!